Some poems I wrote,

At the end of a long day

When my mind is tired

It says goodbye

Wants to shut down

And feel empty

Floats like a fish in the endless water

With every bubble

Release my guilt

And let the waves wash away my sins.

Guilty

I feel the weight, I feel the pain.
Its foreign to me,
I don't know what to do.
get rid of it please,
pleads my inner voice.
I wounded the others heart
and tore mine apart.
I wish, I feel free
remove myself of these binds.
Let me accept, I am guilty.

Doing what you like is freedom, Liking what you do is happiness.

Doing what you like is freedom, Liking what you do is happiness.

What I like? What is my interests,passions? These questions I find very difficult to answer in words. I have many interests, I like many things and I like to do many things. Just because I like doing something doesn't mean I will pursue or do something with the liking. I do it for the happiness.

Many a times I take up a project, take a work but halfway I loose my interest. Is this wrong? I feel guilty and dissapointed when I leave a work undone. I can accept myself. I know I failed and it is part of my learning.

When I take up a topic to learn about, I don't go mad into the topic. I don't go talking about it 24 hours or digging as deep as I want. Why is this, Is it because I don't have the burning need.
There are sooooo many topics to explore in this world. I like touching upon these topics and then leaving them. Then coming back to the topic when I need it. This way I have the exposure.

I am aware of the different possibilities but I don't want to do it.  Many topics I know but I do not learn because I don't want to right now. When I am cooking, I know I can use ratio but I don't use it. I don't feel the need but I know there is something called ratio and I can go it.

Who said that I need to learn maths now, I can learn when I need it.Whoever said all me learning should be done within a certain age.
Maths is only one area in the hundreds of areas I can work on. just because i am not doing maths or science doesn't mean I am not doing something.

When I do what I like and what I want I feel free and confident. I feel happy.

It does not matter how slowly you go as long as you do not stop
----- Confucius

My Health

Food and Nutrition

Do you Eat to Live or Live to Eat ?

In 4th std I was taught about balance diet. My teacher taught me a lot about food and nutrition. For some reason that lesson has stayed with me. Even thought I know about food and nutrition , I did not bring change in my diet.

 For the past few weeks I have brought out change in my food schedule and diet, thanks to my mother. I am eating more fruits and raw vegetables. My meals are more balanced. 

I am also enjoyed exploring different ingredients, grains and trying new recipes. I even learnt to cook few dishes.The whole experience of understanding food is nice.  I am more aware of the food I am eating and I am liking the taste of healthy food.

In April, 8 months ago I decided to stop drinking Coke and other fizzy soft drinks. This is something my teacher in 4th std had told me to do. I don't know if it is affecting my body, I see no changes in me but I feel nice. I feel good about myself. I am able to control whenever people around me drink and I do not feel pity for myself.

Yoga

I did yoga everyday in the morning this week ( four days). I did it after my parents questioned my lack of physical exercise. I have been exposed to yoga long back and even remember my mother forcing me to do yoga everyday when I was young. It dint last long and I never was able to push my exercise session more few days. I think exercise is very difficult and not at all fun. I am fine without without exercise.

This week I have decided to do Yoga everyday. I am determined and optimistic to keep this exercise plan alive for a long time. Only if I do everyday, I will see changes in my body. 

To do this I changed my way of looking at exercise. I know I am doing it to care for my body and take care of my health. I even enjoyed doing yoga in the morning. While doing it i felt connected to my body. 

Every Tuesday I do fitness training for one hour. It is very fun and enriching. I have learnt a lot about my body and fitness. We do aerobics and I really enjoy doing dance. 

On Tuesday I did fitness training and the next day I woke up with thigh pain. This made me realize my body is not fine without exercise. My body need me to do exercise. Only if i take care I will be fine.